If I Stay by Gayle Forman
Black Swan, 2010.
(Age 13+) Highly recommended. It's a snowy day in Oregon, a place that
sounds a bit like England in that it grinds to a halt when the snow
falls. Schools are closed, transport is in chaos and people decide to
take time off work. Seventeen year old Mia, her parents and little
brother Teddy take advantage of the unexpected holiday to visit
friends. On the journey they are involved in a catastrophic crash. Both
parents are killed instantly and Mia and Teddy are mortally injured.
In an out of body experience, Mia finds herself by the side of the
road, watching medics frantically trying to save her and her little
brother. The story revolves around Mia's gradual realisation that,
although in a coma, she has the power to decide whether to 'stay' or
'go'.
The story is told in a series of flashbacks and we discover the pivotal
musical influences of Mia's life. As the only brown eyed brunette in
her family she feels like a changeling. She is a talented cellist with
the offer of a place at the prestigious Juilliard, and her love of
classical music is a surprise to her parents (Dad was a rock musician
until imminent fatherhood made him train as a teacher).
Boyfriend, Adam, is lead singer in an increasingly successful band and
the juxtaposition between cello and lead guitar sometimes causes
tension in the intensity of first love. Making a decision about
Julliard is hard, as accepting a place will mean leaving Adam, but
suddenly Mia is faced with a far more difficult choice.
Told sparingly, this is a faultlessly constructed, harrowing and at
times humorous story of twenty four hours in the life of a girl whose
survival hangs in the balance. Forman is particularly successful in
asking readers to contemplate the big questions, yet placing them in
the context of the every day, almost mundane events of typical family
life.
I won't spoil the story by revealing Mia's decision, but handkerchiefs
will be an essential requirement. Gayle Forman seems to alternate
feather light sensitivity with sledgehammer force and it works
brilliantly. Her readers have to sweat it out and boy, it's worth the
effort. Try this with your teenage readers who demand an intelligent
and thought provoking read.
Claire Larson